With every thing that has been going on in my life in the last 4 years,I finally got around to thinking of my current situation and life style.When I say”I finally got round to thinking”,I meant the penny dropped.I have have been diagnosed with Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis,declared 100% visually disabled,have lost a considerable amount of feeling in my right hand and started Blogging 7 months ago
Discussion with my Finnish Neurologist
Last week I had my twice yearly meeting with my Finnish Neurologist.We went through the normal routine of a check up with a GP.She asked how I was feeling,which turned a 45 minute consultation in to a 2 hour discussion of any current research that may be of benefit to me as a sufferer of Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis.She probed a little further and asked how I was actually feeling in myself.To tell the truth I said,”I feel confused,angry and at times feeling isolated and not looking forward to the future that lies ahead.
I have up until I was diagnosed,lead a pretty much independent life,answering to no one.Life for me was a fantastic box of adventures and experiences.I actively searched new people to meet,places to explore,all with a “Peter Pan” like bravado.Thinking of that another character that always inspired me was “Don Quixote”,written by Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra.I am 46 years old and to tell the truth have achieved very little in the way of monetary or material things.I reckon it comes from the living for today and live your life attitude.I was and still am inquisitive enough to get my self in to awkward situations and have come to realize that I only truly feel alive when my back is against the wall,so to speak.
Blogging and Multiple Sclerosis
Thank heavens for Blogging!Whilst the title for this blog is:British Blog Diary, Expatriate Blog, Helsinki Blog, Finland Blogger,I have found that talking only about Helsinki,Finland,Finnish Lifestyle,Finnish customs,culture and history,is both a way for me to still travel and reflect on my own past.My Neurologist and eye specialists fully support and actively encourage me to continue with this work in progress.The way I see it is,if I was to just sit and watch television,staring out of the window at a life that could have been;I would,I know go silently mad.
So whilst I gain a lot of pleasure from writing this British Expatriate Finnish Blog,I also in many respects gain another form of independence.Though I am more limited as to moving/traveling around outside,I am far from rusty in my mind and imagination.Projects that currently interest me are;learning css,internet marketing and search engine optimization.So whilst one door has closed another has opened.That for me is the very special and almost “Peter Pan”magical aspect of life.
I shall continue to share my experiences in Helsinki,Finland as, a)I have no plans or desire to move away from Finland.As some one said to me a few weeks ago,”You would not get that sort of medical care in the UK” and I believe that with all my heart.As Khalil Gibran once said”for you can only be free when even the desire of seeking freedom becomes a harness to you, and when you cease to speak of freedom as a goal and a fulfillment”.b)I have a nice,comfortable and warm home which is situated in a peaceful,tranquil area of Helsinki and offers me a life style second to none
Epilogue
After seeing the Neurologist I am to receive more physiotherapy,regular consultations with a psychologist,hopeful inclusion in a new research test and treatment for Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis led by doctors at Helsinki University Hospital,a new pair of yellow tinted Mikä Häkkinen style glasses,a talk and speech program for my desktop.To say I am thankful does no justice to the word.The British Blog Diary,Expatriate blog Helsinki Finland will continue to post blog updates and though my life style is undoubtedly changing my resolution to enjoy life grows each and every day
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